What do you want, and what do you need
In the last post I talked about “want” and “need”. Maybe I should have been talking about “desire”, and “need.” Wanting something doesn’t always lead us to do things that might be bad for us. But desire. Now there is the stuff that damage is made of.
What have you done for desire? Lied? Cheated? Suffered pain? Stole? Desire is the key to Pandora’s box. The feeling on not being fulfilled. The feeling that “something” is missing. “Something” is needed to make us whole, to satisfy us. That oh so nebulous “Something” that can never be adequately identified, or completely obtained. Always just tickling the tips of our fingers.
I am going through the right now. The wanting of “something”. I have eaten all of the food that I need today. I have no need to consume anything else. But “something” calls to me. That siren song of desire. While I have a full stomach. And it is only by stopping myself, and checking to see if my stomach is full that I keep myself rom buying “something”, whatever it could be. If I didn’t stop and take an accounting of what my body is telling me, I would start buying, and eating crap.
All in the insane search for “something” that may or may not be found.
Another day in my world.
Namaste.
April 10th, 2008 at 3:46 pm
You are really making an excellent point. I call it the addictive voice because for me it was what fueled my alcohol addiction but it is what makes you crave your drug of choice be it food, crack, heroin or alcohol to name a few. I have been sober almost ten years but the voice still lives. I really think you are right that being able to recognize it is what helps. Then you can blow it off, look at it as insignificant, instead of feeling compelled to listen to it.