Easy weight loss, or is it?
This isn’t going to be a happy, positive post. This isn’t going to be a post where you are going to return because it inspires you. But it might be a post you return to because is strikes a chord in you.
This post is about my struggle with weight loss. I would love to tell you that losing weight is as easy as it sounds. The concept of weight loss is incredibly easy. Move more, eat less, lose weight. That is the magic bullet. The magic formula.
And I struggle with it every day of my life. Being fat hurts both physically and emotionally. Fat jokes, comments, knowing that you are being looked at differently than your counterparts. All of those things hurt. Being fat also hurts you physically in that your body hurts. All the time. Feet, legs, sides, back. You name it, it hurts from carrying more weight than your body is made for.
So why not lose weight? We try. You try, I try. Sometimes we lose some, and sometimes we don’t. It gets as frustrating as hell, doesn’t it? We try sensible programs, and we try the not so sensible. Me? What works for me is knowing that I have a eating disorder.
Yeah, you read that right. I have an eating disorder in that I can’t eat normally. If I try, I over eat. Like one drink too much, and 100 drinks is never enough for an alchoholic. For me 1 donut is too much, and 100 will just make me puke and start all over.
I can understand what bulemics, and anorexics go through. Not completely, but to the extent that I am so much happier when I completely control my food intake. Atkins is the way that I do this. I know that I can lose weight following the Atkins program. I also know that after awhile I will be a raging bundle of cravings. But I will lose weight.
And that is what it is all about, right?
It isn’t easy, is it? I struggle, you struggle. When is it going to start being normal?
I haven’t found that answer yet.