I hate being fat.

I hate being fat.

Say it like that until the end of time and nothing is going to change.  The only way that we are not going to be overweight is if we eat fewer calories, and move our bodies more.

I keep saying it and saying it, and even though it rings true each time I still struggle.  This is the  most depressing aspect of all.

What about you?

I know that this blog is supposed to be about more motion, and eating less food.  I should know, because I am the one who started this.  But over the next couple of days I am going to be talking about where our food comes from, what goes into it, and what it is doing to us.

So, get in, hang on, and enjoy the ride.

L8R

Is it really easy weight loss when you are constantly thinking about what you can and cannot eat?  But it has meant a loss of 6 lbs over the past 4 days.

That is a lot of pounds by any account.  And on Atkins, it is not a fun go.  Regardless of being able to eat all the meat I want.  After a couple of days it isn’t fun, now isn’t it?

But it is 6 lbs.

And that means something right now.

This post is about my struggle with weight loss.  I would love to tell you that losing weight is as easy as it sounds.  The concept of weight loss is incredibly easy.  Move more, eat less, lose weight.  That is the magic bullet.  The magic formula.

And I struggle with it every day of my life.  Being fat hurts both physically and emotionally.  Fat jokes, comments, knowing that you are being looked at differently than your counterparts.  All of those things hurt.  Being fat also hurts you physically in that your body hurts.  All the time.  Feet, legs, sides, back.  You name it, it hurts from carrying more weight than your body is made for.

So why not lose weight?  We try.  You try, I try.  Sometimes we lose some,  and sometimes we don’t.  It gets as frustrating as hell, doesn’t it?  We try sensible programs, and we try the not so sensible.  Me?  What works for me is knowing that I have a eating disorder.

Yeah, you read that right.  I have an eating disorder in that I can’t eat normally.  If I try, I over eat.  Like one drink too much, and 100 drinks is never enough for an alchoholic.  For me 1 donut is too much, and 100 will just make me puke and start all over.

I can understand what bulemics, and anorexics go through.  Not completely, but to the extent that I am so much happier when I completely control my food intake.  Atkins is the way that I do this.  I know that I can lose weight following the Atkins program.  I also know that after awhile I will be a raging bundle of cravings.  But I will lose weight.

And that is what it is all about, right?

It isn’t easy, is it?  I struggle, you struggle.  When is it going to start being normal?

I haven’t found that answer yet.

More motion, and less food.

And we know that that is a lot easier said than done.  With that in mind I was reading about acai berries.  These little guys can help your digestion while you are reducing calories, along with giving you beneficial antioxidants.

Hmm.  Sounds like a little reading is in order.

What am I talking about?  I am talking about hypnosis for weight loss.  It makes sense.  I have taken TM, and went through the Silva Mind Control Method.  so why wouldn’t hypnosis work for me?

If any of you have had experience with it, please let me know in the comments.  Thanks in advance.

I have, what about you?

And, of course, all of that is easier said than done. Stuff happens. Each one of us needs a place that can provide up with weight loss tips. And of course, if you click on that link you will be taken to such a place. I wouldn’t mess with you about something as important as your health.

So, have you started yet?

Getting fat is the easy answer.  The holidays and all of that.  Chocolate, lots of things with cheese and sour cream in them.  And that is where I have been.  Traveling up to 320 lbs.

Yeah.  320.  But that was 3 days ago.  Right now I am sitting at 315lbs.

Though tonight I am going to the Pennsylvania Farm Show and I am going to have some things that I shouldn’t.  And that will be the last blow out.

I promise.

So how have you been?

I started back to the gym this morning.

Walked for 15 minutes, and then did an easy workout on my shoulders.  It was a good way to start.

Tomorrow I will go after work, and walk again for 15 minutes, and then work on my back and biceps.  Then on Friday I will walk, and then work my chest and triceps.  Working out can be boring.  And the results come slowly, under the skin.

But I am moving more.  Now I just have to start eating less.

Namaste.